Signs of a Delusional Mind

When one likes a band as much as I like Third Day, it's hard to say a song that is a favourite - for truly they are all favourites. However, sometimes one or two songs leap out - or at least keep being brought up by the subconcious. For me, this song is a frequent one to my head.

Haunting is the word that comes to mind as a descriptor of this track. It immediately resonated within me and stuck upon me, lingering in my mind - even to this day I unexpectedly get it creeping into my consciousness.

This particular song, to me, is a quintessential example of applying a Biblical narrative to our personal lives; the lyrics keep the story poignantly vague in that they remove the story of the Fall from an ancient theo-historical context to a relatable ballad.

We are all idolaters and self-proclaimed gods - even if we do not realise that we've been seeking our own autonomy - and here Third Day simply yet profoundly asks the question of whether we deserve any mercy of the God from whom we are constantly turning away. While the answer is given - it is more than we deserve - the lyrics, like the Biblical story, tell us that it doesn't end with our betrayal: there is in fact hope, despite the reality that we overwhelmingly do not deserve God's grace.

Take these truths, finely craft them into brilliant poetic prose then put them to haunting music and you get one of my favourite songs of all time.

I Deserve? / Third Day // Conspiracy No. 5

well, i tasted the fruit that was forbidden;
i murdered the trust that You had given
and now i'm living in a place
that's not my home.

the pain in Your heart made You regret;
the moment we spoke, did You forget?
will my transgressions bring us all
to our sweet end?

maybe i'm just being too hard on myself, i don't know.
or is it that Your mercy
is much more than i deserve?

i deserve?

more than i deserve.
(it's more than i deserve)
more than i deserve.
(it's more than i deserve)

betrayed by more than just a kiss,
i did much more, i must admit.
instead of letting it all end,
You bring new hope . . .

more than i deserve.
(it's more than i deserve)
more than i deserve.
(it's more than i deserve)

oh, more than i deserve.
(it's more than i deserve)
oh, more than i deserve.
(it's more than i deserve)

oh, more than i deserve -
more than i deserve -
more than i deserve -

more than i deserve.

i deserve . . ?